What is important to me
must be spoken/written,
made verbal, shared,
even at the risk of having my ego bruised
or being misunderstood.
The sharing heals me,
beyond any other effect.
or to speak what I believe
has brought some pain.
but we all hurt in so many different ways,
and pain either changes or ends.
I had betrayed myself into small silences,
by not saying what had to be said,
while I was beholden to someone else’s words.
But then, I began to recognize a source of power
that comes from the knowledge
that while it is desirable not to be angry,
learning to put my anger into a perspective
gave me great strength.
I drew the face of my own fear,
fear of contempt, of censure, of judgment, of recognition, of challenge,
But most of all, I think, I feared the visibility
without which none of us can truly live,
and that visibility which made me most vulnerable
turns out to be the source of my greatest strength.
In the transformation of my silence into language and action,
it was vitally necessary for me to establish or examine
my role in that transformation
and to recognize it as vital
to that transformation.
For those of us who write,
it is necessary to scrutinize not only the truth of what we speak,
but the truth of the language by which we speak it.
I am driven to share and spread the words
that are meaningful to me.
It is necessary to for me to live and speak
those truths which I believe and know
Because in this way alone
can I survive and grow,
by taking part in a process of life
that is creative and continuing,
that is growth.
The fact that I exist
and that I speak/write my words
is an attempt to break silence
and bridge differences between us,
for it is not difference which immobilizes us,
There are so many silences to be broken.
by John Churchman
Speaking My Truth: Silence Broken. 2016. Speaking My Truth: Silence Broken. [ONLINE] Available at: http://apoetman.blogspot.com/2016/05/silence-broken.html. [Accessed 5 May 2016].